Update 8/12/14

Good bit has happened since I last had an entry. I’m halfway done with summer quarter, and maintaining great grades with a 95 ) So far my perfect 4.0 GPA is looking untouched. I’m hoping to get my first academic achievement following this quarter. I had a gf, again, for less than a week. Last time it ended badly, because she chose to collect hearts. I dont play that game. This other girl I thought was a grown up, but just because someone has a kid, doesnt mean anything. I treated her like I know best how to treat a woman, with compassion, respect, and kindness, and like a lot of people, she ran from it, and right back into her ex’s abusive arms. That’s fine. I was hurting for a day or so, but then I realized that maybe I was on a path in life that she couldnt follow. So my head is high and I’m keeping on. I dont donate plasma anymore since I finally landed a decant job as a debt collector. Yes. It’s hard work. A lot of legal stuff and a lot of angry and mean people who just want to cuss you out. Go ahead, cuss me out, you still owe money, and I still get paid $9/hr with commission and health, vision, and dental insurance. I can afford to listen to you gripe. Got 2 cars now, and even tho neither one works, they just need a few parts and some elbow grease and they will be amazing. Life is beginning to look up. Just got to keep trying my hardest, and I’ll continue to soar :)

mind-over-fears
queenmyr:

accioharo:

firehouselight:

lezbedirty:

hannahlimpy:

A group of Christians showed up at a Chicago gay pride parade in July.
They were holding up signs saying “I’m sorry that Christians judge you”
“I’m sorry for how the churches treated you” and “I used to be a bible-banging homophobe, I’m sorry” 

This isn’t what I normally post, but it’s too beautiful to pass up.

I wish so much that I could have been a part of this. Bravo.

Quality moment is quality.

Wow.

queenmyr:

accioharo:

firehouselight:

lezbedirty:


hannahlimpy
:

A group of Christians showed up at a Chicago gay pride parade in July.

They were holding up signs saying “I’m sorry that Christians judge you”

“I’m sorry for how the churches treated you” and “I used to be a bible-banging homophobe, I’m sorry” 

This isn’t what I normally post, but it’s too beautiful to pass up.

I wish so much that I could have been a part of this. Bravo.

Quality moment is quality.

Wow.

It isnt that I’m not interested in anyone

It’s just that I’m used to being the only one who tries. I’m tired of getting hurt. They say to wait because they will find me, but when I wait with no results, they say go out ahd search for it. What if I’m tired of putting myself out there and getting hurt? What if I just want to connect with someone? It isnt that hard, seeing how many people change partners like they change underwear. But for me, it is damn impossible.

Whats the fucking point?

No one loves you. I am an accident (for real, I was. Parents were on LSD and thought I was a trip). I was supposed to be an abortion, and I wish I wouldve been. These feelings of loneliness and worthlessness are pushing me to think of suicide daily. And the best thing? I tell a friend about it, and get ignored. Thing is, I know no one will see this, nor even fucking care.

As I glance at my dashboard

I see all these beautiful Lesbians, and I wonder… why cant I be beautiful like them? T_T Some days, it would feel nice to feel pretty. A random smile from a stranger, a simple “Hello” but I dont know what the feeling is like to be flirted with. It’s been years since anyone has had interest in me. Guess thats the life of an ugly duckling :/

Sometimes a bad situation will prove positive

Lesson learned from today. For a while, I’ve seemed to have the most rotten luck. No job, friends are dropping off the radar because they dont see me anymore since I dont have the extra to do things, and my car is slowly falling apart while I struggle to repair it. A while ago, a tire went out and I was riding on a spare. As my luck would have it, my spare tire decided to give up as I was on my way home, in a thousand degree heat. (Okay, so it was 110 with heat index, but out in direct sunlight, it felt like 1000) As luck would turn though, I managed to find a really decent used tire for $20 at a junkyard, rather than pay $40 or more at a tire shop for a tire that wouldn’t have been half as good. So now, I have all 4 good tires again. And to top it all off, my parents treated me to my first Red Robin burger, and lemme tell ya, their “Yuuuuuuuummm” slogan hardly does any justice. So yeah, today’s bad situation turned into some pretty awesoe blessings. Finally, this is what a break feels like. Thank you, life. I owe ya one.